When I Was Mortal by Javier Marias

A first-person narrator looks back on a formative, obsessive attachment and the small, consequential choices around it, weaving memory, regret and suspicion into an elegiac meditation on love, culpability and mortality; sparse, intimate and quietly unnerving, the narrative explores how desire and secrecy reverberate through a life and complicate the line between truth and self-deception.

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